Post by Jackson on Dec 5, 2018 2:01:18 GMT -8
I don't really know how to start this. I feel like any way I write this will be scrutinized endlessly, I used to not care, but I was also really young and stupid before.
TL;DR: I joined in 2015 around the end of my eighth grade year, played with you guys on-and-off my freshman year and haven't spoken to you guys since my Senior year, or now.
I joined the forum back in 2015 around September. Something about that doesn't feel right cause in 2015, I was a Freshman, and I remember this server since my eighth grade year in middle school. Well, it actually might make sense cause I joined this server mid-school year and I stayed in it through the summer and all throughout my freshman year back in El Paso when I was a stupid freshman trying to make my way up the ropes. I played back when we had people like Alex on and Jubei the Pony. I used to be name Cloud9 back when I had no clue they were an e-sports group. I played literally every day for a pretty long bit for like... Mid-to-end of 2015 and the beginning of 2016. I remember Luna cause I'm pretty sure they didn't like me, I don't know and it is wrong of me to assume, but that's what I thought then. I kinda stopped playing the server before my sophomore year started, when I then found and began trying to become a Firefighter. This failed, cause I fucking MOVED. I finished my sophomore year in Maryland, did my Junior year, and now I'm a Senior. I'm mid-year, just finished my Fire 1 Certification and I am taking HAZMAT. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna fail it. After that, I'll take EMT.
But, since all of that:
Nonetheless, a lot has changed. It leaves me envious because I wish I could immediately understand and slot myself into the vast changes on the server, talk to and get to meet people. However, as we all know, things don't work that way. I had an argument with LolFrampton under that mindset and had a discussion with him about the server talking about how I thought it was going to fall my junior year.
It didn't, and I was stupid for ever believing that it would.
There's nothing else I can do to excuse my actions other than apologize, but its still up to Framp really.
TL;DR: I joined in 2015 around the end of my eighth grade year, played with you guys on-and-off my freshman year and haven't spoken to you guys since my Senior year, or now.
I joined the forum back in 2015 around September. Something about that doesn't feel right cause in 2015, I was a Freshman, and I remember this server since my eighth grade year in middle school. Well, it actually might make sense cause I joined this server mid-school year and I stayed in it through the summer and all throughout my freshman year back in El Paso when I was a stupid freshman trying to make my way up the ropes. I played back when we had people like Alex on and Jubei the Pony. I used to be name Cloud9 back when I had no clue they were an e-sports group. I played literally every day for a pretty long bit for like... Mid-to-end of 2015 and the beginning of 2016. I remember Luna cause I'm pretty sure they didn't like me, I don't know and it is wrong of me to assume, but that's what I thought then. I kinda stopped playing the server before my sophomore year started, when I then found and began trying to become a Firefighter. This failed, cause I fucking MOVED. I finished my sophomore year in Maryland, did my Junior year, and now I'm a Senior. I'm mid-year, just finished my Fire 1 Certification and I am taking HAZMAT. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna fail it. After that, I'll take EMT.
But, since all of that:
I hopped on the server on-and-off between my sophomore and junior years. My taste in music has EXPLODED and changed a literal fuck-ton. I mean, sure I still listen to some songs, but things like Nightcore and Monstercat have long since left me, and I used to listen to a FUCKLOAD of monstercat on the server and in school because of the opening song we had on our server when Cerulean made the opening picture. It was Volant - Minty. I used to have a tasteless sense in music though, not going to lie. But songs like Minty still haven't left me.
It didn't, and I was stupid for ever believing that it would.
There's nothing else I can do to excuse my actions other than apologize, but its still up to Framp really.
There honestly hasn't been a month in my life since I've joined where SmallHorse didn't sit in my head for at least a second, minute, or a whole day. Here I am, typing this shit out at 04:54.
If anybody here remembers me, I would love it if you guys posted your fondest memory of me or even some of the dumber things I've done and said. I also would like to see you guys post some of your endeavors of time as it has changed. It would be great to get to know and talk to you guys yet again, and if you're on the discord, I would love to also talk to you guys there and possibly chat it up on the server.
Its good to see you guys again.
(Edit: 12/5/2018; 05:04): Dude. I just read forum posts, Forgot that my name also used to be Teamsmacks.